Gaydar
Part 2
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Freedom was what you wanted
Doing the job to which you aspire. Make the music you wanted. Attending the people you wanted to, Japanese or not. Live the life you wanted
All that you had. You were free.
You had what you coveted. You had the freedom you wanted
At least that was what you thought
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- I'm gay
He said that as it announces the time of day, as the most banal news
He was calm. In fact, you do not remember seeing him as calm, serene
You vaguely remember hearing the others react. Koki had spoken Tops & Health Unless this is Naka
You do not know
Everything you remember was his eyes in yours
Determination, confidence, pride even. There was nothing else in his eyes.
no room for doubt
He had always been the strongest among you. Paradoxically, it was thought rather Koki or yours. But it was by far the strongest. Not doing his job until the end. Or because he faced reporters as a person.
No, he was the stronger because it was about.
on its strength in
On his choices
On in his life
On the face itself
on him
This assurance, this certainty, this freedom, you envied him
You want to be free. Truly free.
You wanted to be free with him. You wanted to be him. And above all, you wanted him.
It had everything you wanted. It was everything you wanted.
And you wanted so much. So you made you the effect of a thirsty in the desert. You were thirsty and there was the oasis
you envied him because even if you claimed this freedom, this freedom you never would never
You would never because you would never get her.
Fear gnawed at you. You're shaking. You're shaking like a child shakes loose when the hand of his mother. This freedom is terrorizing you
Unlike him
Him who assumed without fear. Assumed it was. Assumed his choice. Assumed his life
You wanted it
You hated him too. You hated him because you knew deep down that you would never have and you would never be a Free.
free choices. Free of his life. Free sexuality. Free with him
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- Dirty ... dirty PD
You did not know why you had said. You were not thinking. Thee felt to be outside you. You saw you say without being able to prevent
Choc. Disappointment. Pain
His eyes had dimmed by these emotions. The strength in his weakened eyes. You were among spotted a flaw. You saw a gap
You hated him
You hated him as much as you wanted. You hated him make you feel all this. His freedom and certainty you puffed. You wanted them to disappear
So have you tried to enter the fault. You've tried to break
Breaking his certainty. Breaking freedom. Break him. Fully
was nothing but a headlong rush. You knew.
But the fog surrounding you long
The fog thickened so that you can not stop
output away
The e tau tightened
Thou insulted. You despised. It disgusts you. You were almost done by convince you. T'espérais to have convinced him
But it was a waste
You've known this evening
You had insulted. You were tired but fear and hate, as usual, you were forced to push
He replied. Sharp, funny, on
You knew affected, weakened by your words. The rings do not deceive
Yet he insisted. Proud, confident. Free
you wanted. More than you could have imagined
You hated him
Your hatred has awakened his
It é ; silent angry. It was volcanic. It was beautiful
And he saw
He saw behind your hate. You see through, breaking your false pretenses. Bringing you what you tried to flee. Bringing you face yourself. Bringing you face your true desires
Coward
shabby
Want
Fun
Coward
Words that hold you back. Words that did not allow the leak. Words that you destroyed in his mouth. Destroying, as only truth can destroy
You surprised to moan, to go against him, to enjoy
and Co. silent good
brothel was good. You had felt man. You had felt to live without fear, without trepidation. Subsided just simply
By being you, he showed thee what it was like to be home. You had felt free for the first time. You were saved
The fog that blinds you so far, who accompanied you so long
The fog lifted along with the enjoyment
And as enjoyment, it makes you euphoric
Then empty. What he showed thee. What he offered thee
All you had taken
Tears
was all that you left
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Doing the job to which you aspire. Make the music you wanted. Attending the people you wanted to, Japanese or not. Live the life you wanted
You thought you were free
You just get what you wanted
You just get what you wanted
You deceived
Today, you knew
You knew what you wanted
And you were going to take
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